What I hate the most about myself

My terrible obscesion.

Hello everyone, even tho this post has been posted very earlier as my "first" post I dont really think you will care.

In fact the thing I hate the most about myself is that I cant accept the fact that no one cares about what I do.

NO ONE CARES ABOUT THE DUMB SHIT I DO, really no one cares.

Im always thinking and thinking all the stupid day about what people might think or might not think about me. and this annooyinngg.

Maybe its the fact that I grew up without a father or maybe im just dumb.

Ive tried to read about it, I tried to not think about it, but in reality maybe im just a coward, a sissy boy who enjoys overthinking all day.

Asking myself question after questions is healthy?

and im doing it again here lol.

Really, even tho I know as a fact that most people are just stuck in their heads as much as I am, I just cant stop overthinking about it.

I watched a ton of MGTOW videos after I got cheated on MULTIPLE TIMES by my ex ( thats a story for another day lol) as I was trying to grew a pair of balls to dump that bitch I learned many useful things about life.

Maybe I shouldnt have even know about it, because the red pill really fucks up your view of women.

But whats done is done, you cant do anything about it.

But going back to the point, and very obsessed with thinking and thinking all day, I dont do anything with my life.